The positive Me. Opportunity.

It will not makes us die for sure. It will never be. Never be the end for us.

Truly they are so influential and strong in many ways. Able to solve all this big cases in such a short and pressured time is not an easy task, especially when the things have gone so bad. Awfully bad if I have to stress it.

I have tried to view this from another perspective and I am quite likely to accept this like I have already been. Not that I am deceiving myself to get over it, instead I am being positive like I used to and in looking for more reasons to support it.

This whole incident is an opportunity. An opportunity which has bring us closer. A lot closer than the past. Never had so much time spent together. Taking care the needs and feeds. In the end of the day, it unites us to generate a stronger bond. Back to back to face the worst outcome from all directions. It can be quite terrifying to hear all those. But this will be a valuable time for us to grow up. I don't know the rest but surely I will appreciate what had been done and what has been doing. Though it sounds very strangely but to me, it happens at a good timing as before it is too late to shape me.

There was once I told myself I needed few outside factors to push myself higher or to change the unwanted attitude in me. Precisely 3 of them that I given it some thought. Right now 2/3 of the possible factors have already taken place. The last one of course I don't wish it to happen. Something I don't wish to see before myself shows some good achievement.

This ain't the end.

What a major turnover. Something I had in my mind not near yet not a long time ago which I highly doubt it will ever happened. It doesn't come unexpectedly to me though, since I got curious on this matter but at that time I just could not get the answer of it and by the action, I were left assured. So I left it where I stopped thinking about it. Maybe the sense of curiosity didn't strike me hard to give it another thought. At this moment should I scare or should I don't care? This two definitely not the options in my hand now. I shall not fear and I shall take this matter into my heart just like everyone of us did.

Strangest thing is I do not fear for it up till now. Somehow I appeared calmer than I thought the moment I hear the news. Perhaps I am not able to weigh how catastrophic is it. I don't see far enough like all of you do. Perhaps I am still the kid.

Perhaps I am not experiencing what you all had to face.

Uh oh...

Sometimes I feel blogging like talking to myself. How weird. As my fingers run through on this dusty and dirty keyboard on mine, my mouth will follow each and every word that I gonna hit it out. Ho ho ho....( I even mimic the laughter, -.-" )

Anyway don't care much la right, not that this habit of mine offends anyone but surely mustn't let my family knows this. They will think I have gone nuts. Positively thinking, this habit got its benefit geh, which is you don't need to stress up yourself by keeping it inside. Not everyone have their confidant and also the mood to tell geh. Don't get over syok with this though otherwise problem arise. Psychologist's fee can be expensive. Should be la, I haven't try it before.

Uh, the new player I embeded is quite good. Tested it for few days. Not sissy type, not fussy type and not messy type, just the one that I like it. Classy. Creating a playlist is quite a headache but after get used to it, it is just like ABC. There ain't much Chinese songs in their library, dominated by the Western. Still I manage to include few from Jacky Cheung and Faye Wong. Both also my favourite. He he the more that I look at it, the more I feel it suits.

Next is some old photos. Ke ke ke...pity this fella that I manage to 'steal' from his Multiply. Not sure the account is still there or not.

The caption he gave himself - 'Girlish Lip'

T. Kaneshiro wor.

Ha ha..dear Wai, if you see this don't sue kau me wei. I am promoting you. This LENG ZHAI here, I have known him since Primary 2 or 3 in tuition centre S.I.R.. Quite close to him back then since both of us are also SMART boy. Ha ha...then we 'broke up' during Primary 5. My fault for leaving you without telling. Like many of those animation story, I was too innoncent and didn't get the chance to tell you. Fate brought us back in year 2000. MBSSKL. The rest is the sweet memories share by everyone of us, Kohs.

The night is still young...for us.

Genting High. on 03/08. Celebrate Yeu's 21st birthday.

Nobody teman me watch Bollywood movies. Sobs.

I don't know the way to the south. Yooor.

I can't attend Olympic. Gonna miss everything there in China. Haihz.

Uh leaving soon, I miss the 'bed'. Sighs.

WHAT?? This is my emo face. EMO-ed. -.-" CEEEEEEEKIK you baru tau.

When I emo I kiss chicken's. McChicken's.

Where is my gal tonight? huh huh huh. I am taiko tonight.

Hocus pocus let me focus. Which one to choose leh? Sienz.

Not long after we had our emo faced taken, we went out for more photo taking session. Yeu's wish was granted there and that makes everyone of us so jealous of him that night. Issh...

Yay, pretty gal take photo with me!!

More photos taken while hanging out there. Let me highlight some of it.

Serious face, checked. Buttons up, checked. Tug in shirt, checked. Show a love sign on your lower private part, err only Seng checked with a hamsap smile.

Helping our friend, Yee to promote Olympus.

Rahsia bocor. That is what happened when we are too stressed.

It is a pity that Jin, Lin and Wai could not join us on that night. Otherwise I believe the night will be much younger. Ha ha...hope there will be more fun fun trip like this.

Today supposely I told myself to study since examination is around the corner but in the morning with my eldest brother, we sent my dad back to his office for awhile. From here to Rasa is not near at all, further than Putrajaya I think since the Selayang highway's condition is nowhere looks better than the one heading to Putrajaya. Anyway we go using old road through Ulu Yam, only when we came back use Selayang. So reach home I continued my sleep and there goes my half day gone into sleeping.

My dad has been sick for the past few weeks. Looking at his getting thinner and thinner body hurts me. I still remember how muscular he was. I am not joking, he is like many other who born around independence time will have a stronger built body compare to youngster nowadays. Guess this shows the sign for him to go slower at this age and smoke lesser. Talk about smoke, he did not have one since he starts to get sick.

Mum must be constantly worry about him. She gets angry too because of my dad's stubborness for not eating for much. A meal is very important to a patient you see. I guess my dad lost his appetite and things like that la.

Hmm...not much to blog la. Not in mood anyway. But life still goes on no matter what happens around you. So see la...