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Woah, am on the Facebook while doing this update. Had a glance over on Jyh Gau's nick he used in FB and triggered my ever frivolous mind wandering what if I use the similar nick to his? What would it sounds like? Aun Aun Ooi? Man, this sounds like putting the baby to bed or feeding them with those shitty-like porridge. *no offense to all the babies and their highly nutritious food as well as Jyh Gau*

Mum mum oh~ ngam. Wtf!!! What a cute name I have. Love it. =)

Talking about names and nicks remind me of how my nickname O.J.A. to begin with. Ahhh memories. Sweet one. Definitely. Never would have thought OJA will becomes the nickname that I use the most in my daily life. Simply because it is easy to remember and sounds unique to some. Or rather weird for a Chinese boy with a Thai name. Love to see those faces when first hear OJA. As well as trick them to believe that I am a Thailand-er. Ha ha ha... stupid imagination comes knocking my mind again. What if OJA becomes household name in 20 years later? What a level that would be. Awesome!!!

Little update on myself. Had a blood donation. My fourth time. Like many does, I do hate needles especially big one but what can I do. The charitable side of me insisted me to being charitable.

In the process of donating.

Damn look so old in the picture. Looking pale as well. Anyway shall reward and pamper myself more when the cash starts rolling in. Hoping to be as handsome as George Clooney at his age. Ha ha...dream on. Personally don't think within this 20s or 30s I can be as good looking as Takeshi. Sad.

George Clooney

Takeshi Kaneshiro

Alrighty, I suppose it is late to continue anymore. Should relax myself and take a good bath before I ends my day with a good good sleep. That is what matter most for a healthy complexion and facial. GOOD SLEEP.

Note to self -Looking at the resolution tracker, I only achieved the fourth and the eight. 2 out of 8. That's miserable but ain't feeling down. Though I did not get to achieve it, it doesn't mean I don't learn from it. I shall work harder this year. =P

Life and its Kicking

I want to write but not an author
I want to let my fantasy out but being seen as frivolous
I want to fly but no wings
I want to invent but no knowledge
I want to create but not God
I want to be but am afraid

I want to...
I want to.....
I want to.......

So many wants but so little did
So little did but yet only so much that I can do.

I am just a human after all. =/

Happy Mid Autumn.

You reap what you sow.

How true is this? Someone please tell me.

Time is ticking and I know I am doing nothing about it. Is this the best way out?

Looking at my friends who are working now makes me feel weird. Is this the kind of life that I will live? Nine to five, pay cheque to pay cheque, similar routine for 365 days, unsure of wanting to stay or change, no matter how good you did it, it is for the company as this is what you are paid for?! Its just a job after all, I know. Sigh.

They come and tell me about their job. Good job and bad job, high pay and low pay, exciting and boring, some following their dreams some are not, some are building their career some are building their bank counts, some likes it some hates it. While they have their fair share in the working world, I am still dreaming frivolously. Yes I still dream big and crazy if you have heard what I always said. Spaceship, whole city, whole mountain, everything huge. Stupid concept, out of the world idea and so on.

Yea, making it big is just dreaming it, living the life holding to the job is reality. But can one live without dreams? Are you able to achieve your dreams at the end of the day?

What happened to your dreams? Where have they been? Are you telling me you want to drive a Ferrari at the age of 50s and hit the brakes more than the gas pedal? I do not mean that whatever you are doing now is not great but ask yourself, can you even own a Ferrari at 60s if you are to go on with it? *the word 'you' in this context means no one in particular, its free for all*

Insanity in sanity.

Anyway, I just want to let it off my chest. I may have spoken too soon on this but mind you, I am slapping myself with what I wrote as well. I am writing to keep myself sane in this crazy world. Sigh.

Now, would you share with me what is your dream? =)

2010

Let me see what I am up to for this year's resolution.

• Adopt an exercise regimen while I still able to.
• Instill more self-disciplinary and self-confidence.
• Get my ass away from sticking to the computer that much.

Basically I have added a Resolution Tracker at the sidebar. It is for my own preference only, nothing much. Don't know if I am able to achieve it but should give it my best try.

Happy 2010 peeps.

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On other notes, I did not do much of entry last year. Ha ha... only 9. That does not even make it to average 1 for each month. So miserable. Ka ka ka ka ka...

It got me.

Tonight somehow I feel indifferent. Indifferent in the way that I question myself. Are there dreams too big for one man to chase? When Thomas E. and Alexander G. Bell first put their mind into inventing bulb and telephone, do they actually build castle in the air? So what has made them so steadfast to their belief that their plan will work? And that is even after so many failures they had encountered.

No, do not get it wrong. I am not trying to invent something out of nothing. I am nowhere capable of doing so. I am just wondering if my dream is too big for someone like me to achieve it. And no I am not going to spell it out of what is my dream. I am still hesitating about this.

Every now and then, I always ask myself what I am going after in my life. Honestly, I could not find an appropriate answer to that. My mind keeps fickle among the choices I gave myself. It is nothing firm and solid at all. Like those movies in the cinema, keep changing for a new one after three or four weeks on screen.

Surely that has to be put a stop on it. Otherwise I will keep on deviates from my rightful track. Life is getting meaningless if it goes on like this and in the end I will be useless. =)

Tonight was not the first night for cracking my head on this. I had been waking up thinking about it and same before I go to bed. This is so unlike me. The feeling is so vivid and yet so diffident.

Anyway the sky is the limit. And I wish to see it myself.

The figure goes up by one. It is 2009.

It is already 2009. What does it has to offer me? Or what I have in my mind to paint this year into a more colourful one? There is definitely some, I suppose and hope. Song Yeu asked me few times on my new year resolution. I could not answer him on the spot as I didn't put any thoughts in it. Honestly I don't do such things in the past. Maybe I am lack of direction due to my habit of happy-go-lucky. Somehow after witnessed so many things last year, I guess I should have do more preparation for myself in years to come. So here it goes,

1. To have more passion in everything I am doing or involve,
2. To learn and equip myself with more new skills.

That should be it. I guess when one puts all his or her heart into something, the outcome should be wonderful. And that is what I am looking for this year. My passion towards everything.

Last year was painted blue. Hopefully this year will be more vibrant.

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."
- M. K. Gandhi